iamraf

2009-07-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

love cannot remain by itself- it has no meaning.
love has to be put into action and that action is service.
whatever form we are, able or disabled, rich or poor,
it is not how much we do but how much love we put in the doing a lifelong sharing of love with others.

2009-07-17T08:24:00.002+08:00

well day 5 of my training...going ok just having trouble with getting my cardio workout haha....
well had been torn between some phones to get but narrowed down to htc hero, htc touchdiamond2/omnia2...thx elfy for ur opinions on android phones made my decision easier and good luck masok ns next week haha...

well have been getting these lines like "lifes unfair"..."cinta itu susah nk dijelaskan(which means love is very hard to express/explain)" from ppl...haha...i find them to be true....

n i just wanna to say to this certain person...u should know who u r...

"walaupon 100 perempuan lawa datang...aku akan tetap meyayangimu"...which means eventho 100 preety girls comes my way, i'll still love you"...
bt hais wattodo?

a pic i made using photoshop from scratch...

2009-07-09T14:51:00.002+08:00

hmm isit just me or do i always start posts on a bad note...well currently 2009 is still the suckiest year soo far...but wat to do?...feel like this person that i really2 care abt alot...does nt even give 2cents abt me...hais...but wat to do?life sux live with it...

monday was also the most boring day ever...sat outside SGH for close to 7hrs waiting for khai to get watever he has to do at the CPC across the road...after that 1 by 1 things goes wrong for that night except that we got the weekend coupon khai needed at e very last min...after mths of nt driving a manual...i drove like a learner who just started learning how to drive...that sux...need to drive manual transmission more often...

as for yesterday it was alil bit on the up side...met huda at serangoon after she was done for the day with work at ard 1pm...cool thing was i didnt get lost n that kene mandi hujan like a few times getting to serangoon haha...went to sengkang for lunch at BK...went window shoppng for a bit...went to timezone to play some arcade games den went to some phone shops to check out htc diamond2 phone but to no avail...

well overall my year still sux...vattodo?

2009-06-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

been a while since i blogged...blog seems kinda dead aint it?haha

well been sick since friday...it sux really...gonna have my medical checkup for spf on 2nd july...really2 need to be well by then...

and emotionally i have been down in the dumps...hais....people who r my msn contacts might notice my nick...saying "wanna be someone to the somebody i love"...i do mean it n i still mean it...

and to 2 certain people...sorry for venting my anger at both of u the other day and thx for being there for me...u guys rock...haha...

well wrote something a few weeks back here it is:

At first sight,
She had something none of the others had,
To me she stood out,
It all seemed like I could chase her to the ends of the Earth,
Just to say I love you,
Even if she said I don't,

Her face is burned and permanently pressed in my mind,
Her face brings me joy and sorrow,
The joy of seeing her face,
But the sorrow of her not loving me the way I love her,
Just the joy of seeing her face gets me through the day,
My love for her is stronger than any material in this universe,
But she doesn't know how much I do,

The pain of not being able to talk to her,
The pain of not seeing her in person,
The pain of not being with her,
It seems unbearable,

That one time of holding her hand when she was scared,
I never wanted it to end,
My love seems unbreakable,
I can't stop thinking of her,
Not for one minute of the day,

So all I can do is try to get a message to her,
It's that I love her,
And there's nothing anyone can do about it,
Yet I'm the only one that love her,
And I will try everything to get her in this One Sided Love,
But it might only be that,
This One Sided Love.

2009-06-16T22:49:00.009+08:00

yesterday was 15th June 2009 so happy bday Hilda !! =D
well in morning met up with nisa at whitesands n decided to wait for hilda at the lib....waited for like an hr...when hilda finally managed to find us in the lib...we gave her this dare to take a pic with any random stranger she can find in the lib

well after this...the 3 of us went to vivo to meet rab n hilmi...suddenly found out they were on the same train as us so i decided for the 3 of us to drop at ct hall first n make a detour to give rab n hilmi time to reach vivo first lol...when we finally reach vivo...had lunch...n finaally another dare for her to do at vivo which was recorded by nisa n i

after this, rab, hilmi, hilda, nisa and i went on our way to marina sq...got lost cos we missed our stop so...nvm r adventure rite guys?haha...well teserempak with abg amir and kak zura at citylink...well finally reach marina sq met their friends...alisha and liyana(sorry if i spell any of ur names wrongly)...hilda's dare this time was to find a stranger to wish a happy bday n i got to record it...sorry if sound abit soft

after all of it was done we said goodbye to alisha n liyana....n made our way to paragon...reaching paragon we had to go around finding khai n nisha...when we finally found them hilda was dared to do 17 jumping jacks like in the middle of the walkway infront of paragon n once again i recorded it haha...

after that was over we were walking ard not telling hilda where we were going ended up at spenelli(nora's workplace) where nora, wai kit, aisyah and aleeya were waiting for us with 2 bday cakes for the bday girl =D
we had cake n after that we like passed our gifts to hilda... hope u like our gifts =D
well initially after that we planned to go karaoke but bday girl, nora, wai kit, aleeya, khai and nisha had to go off so we decided to go E!hub to play pool instead...i won 5 games out of the 5 games i played hehe =p hilda n aleeya rejoined us after a while at e!hub n finally went home n got my well deserved rest =p

below would be a random pic taken at vivo

other pics will be posted in aisyah's blog soon
thx hilda for being soo great n doing all our embarassing dares...do show mercy for my bday =p

2009-06-08T12:48:00.002+08:00

well yesterday was was involved in a road accident in the morning at bedok...which also happens to be my first ever accident behind the wheel...bangged into the back(left hand side) of another car...which sux...luckily the guy decided not to claim insurance...but i have to pay for the repairs of both cars which would make me around $1000 poorer maybe...hopefully less...

well i feel like my life is kinda insignificant...i should learn from my mistakes....2009 is the suckiest year so far...i said so far cos life might get worse...feel like watever i do in life isnt significant...so y should i continue trying...hais

alone

2009-06-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

From the second you walked out the door (Door)
Hard to believe you ain't here anymore (All the memories)
From the minute that you ran away (Away)
I just can't seem to stop living in yesterday (Yesterday)
I tried to go to sleep (I tried to go to sleep)
But all I can see is you next to me (Talking 'bout a family)
Trying not to weep
But i can't seem to help what i feel

And I, I, I, I
Don't wanna be alone anymore
Cause it's breaking me inside
And I, I, I, I
I've been left that way to many times before
And that's not what it's about
I can do the things I like
Go out every single night
But that's not what I want, that's not what I want
All the money in the world, it doesn't mean a thing when your alone
Your alone

Now you're not here to tell me "No" (No)
What I gotta do or where I gotta go (Gotta be happy)
I guess I really should have known
Now i can't even get you on the telephone (Oh)
I'm trying to be strong (Strong)
Telling myself I can make it on my own, yeah
Cause baby since you've gone
I just can't see myself with anyone

Oh I, I, I, I
Don't wanna be alone anymore
Cause it's breaking me inside
And I, I, I, I
I've been left that way to many times before
And that's not what it's about
I can do the things I like
Go out every single night
But that's not what I want, that's not what I want
All the money in the world, it doesn't mean a thing when your alone
Your alone

I don't wanna be the one no more
Your the only one that i adore
This time we got to put things right
I really need you in my life
Really feel that i let you down
I was lost back then but now
Can't stand the rain without your love

I, I, I, I
Don't wanna be alone anymore
Cause it's killing me inside (and now)
And I, I, I, I
I've been left that way to many times before
And that's not what it's about (not what it's about)
I can do the things I like (yeah yeah)
Go out every single night
But that's not what I want, that's not what I want (no, no)
All the money in the world, it doesn't mean a thing when your alone

I, I, I, I
Don't wanna be alone anymore

2009-06-01T20:55:00.002+08:00

ZS JRNZWERN CCRDPRC XWRKLIERXFIRKZWRTWKKWI?

: RCFMWRZWI =(

only certain ppl would know how to read this

2009-05-30T10:54:00.004+08:00

well yesterday my day started of quite fun i guess... hilmi lost his bike keys...but luckily he still got his spare keys haha...went to masjid alkaff for sembahyang jumaat...ran into ian n ashary there...after that went to the atm near my hse cos ian wanted to withdraw some cash while he was doing that i was playing ard with his bike...mcm paham uh rafi...well at 3:30pm met khai at tamp int...decided to play bowling at safra...1 of the games i tried my best to get the number 7 for every frame but too bad i couldn't

at ard 4+ or 5+ khai went home and i went on my merry way to sch hoping to catch ian with this girl from IFC just out of curiousity...but he got away b4 i reached the place where he was at...at 6 met up with hilda, rab, aisyah, nora, waikit and nisa...abt 30mins later hilmi met up with us...i teman-ed nisa n aisyah n waikit study in sch until 9pm until going home...

GRADUATION DAY 09(for those still schooling, hope this would inspire all of u)

2009-05-23T11:34:00.004+08:00

graduation day was a blast...cool uh....finally our 3 years of "hard work" paid off =)

2009-05-20T21:54:00.002+08:00

hmm things have been going badly lately...from renting a diff car than the one i was looking forward to...my spf interview and something that cant be mentioned rite now...waiting for things to go back onto the right path...hoping to get spf n quickly get a job or just wait slowly for army to call me...kinda looking forward to tmr's graduation...finally getting my diploma =)

life is like a rollercoaster....i hate rollercoasters lol....hais

2009-05-13T18:40:00.005+08:00

spent the day at changi beach and at east coast park to emo bcos of the same dream ive been getting for the past 2 nites...the beach just calms me down you see...den make plans with dino for sunday to get the supplies for our plan for family bbq. khai gotten letter from spf...lucky ass... the guy who actually accidently said " i love to speed" during the interview got in...it would suck if i get rejection letter instead but congrats bro =D

for this certain person...lain kali kalau kau ade problem n tknk share den just dont share...dun just say ade problem den when aku tanye n nk amek berat... kau marah aku n suroh aku jgn kacau!

2009-05-09T10:29:00.001+08:00

1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)

2009-05-03T10:20:00.002+08:00

26 april
met hilmi after his madrasah den we decided to go to SGH to visit ain's parents as they met an accident. insyallah mereka sembuh dgn cpt. well on the way home from SGH hilmi didnt want to listen to my instructions n wanted to follow his own way. instead of getting into aye(ecp) we got into aye(tuas). when i saw the exit to clementi i straight away shouted at him to exit there haha...den we found the aye(ecp) at clementi haha. 1 hr ride home eh total? maybe

29 april
hilmi and I went to bedok n decided to eat the kfc...bought the bargain meal which was actually for a party of 3...i dunno y but i just couldnt eat alot on that day so atlast he ate 4 piece of chicken n ate 2 haha...den we lepak at bedok library for a while n saw whom we think was khai's mom haha...den sempat ask him if his mother was working on that day or nt

30 april
met up with hilmi, khai, ard and sabrina in school. Hilmi, Khai and I accompanied ard and sabrina to the tcc to rent their graduation gowns after which we planned to go to the gym. When we reached the sports complex we were like..."WAH gym full sak! main bola pe?" haha so from going to the gym we ended up playing soccer. After that we played netball haha. After getting tired, took a cold cold cold shower at design sch after which we had our...ermm dinner? at design sch canteen a cat scratched me there haha basket btol...while eating i started to msg nisa asking where was she at so we could meet her n friends after our meal. After eating, hilmi, Khai and i decided to walk to where nisa n the rest were at by going out of sch by bedok reservoir haha. meet up with them. Khai, Hilmi and I were soo hyper n random on that day dunno y doing all those stupid stuff and suddenly singing/saying random crazy stuff. 9+ we started to tell them ghost stories abt TP. the funny part was when my bag fell and the 3 girls got scared hahahaha. at 10 decided to go home...sorry guys i couldnt get the car to send u home.

2 May
went to sakura with i think half of my family on my mom's side was soo fun ate alot of raw food and cooked food ofcourse...had alot of fun cos its been a long time since all us cousins were like together at the same place. started planning for a family bbq at east coast park on 6th june im in charge of logistics haha...well ill post pics of this day when i feel like it haha...

2009-04-17T21:31:00.002+08:00

do i always have to start off my posts saying "its been a long time since ive posted" ? haha
well can't deny that it has been awhile since i did. well last week, on thursday Khai, Hilmi and myself went to e!hub to play pool. Khai and hilmi drew at 6 games each and i only won 3 games cos i was kinda giving them chance haha. Last friday was good friday but we did not expect the mosque to be like super crowded. Sooooooo many "orang dorang" was around haha...Hilmi and I had to pray at the staircase and it felt like being in a sauna i tell you. Damn hot seh. After prayers went to Hilmi's house cos it started to rain so waited for the rain to stop and started talking craps and watching tv. We actually planned to either go cycling or play pool but den i started to msg nisa then hilmi and I ended up meeting Nisa, Hilda(hilmi's cousin) and Rab(nisa and hilda's friend). Went ard tampines 1. It was super crowded also. Felt like sardine seh seriously haha.Well Rab went off after that, next followed by Hilda. So hilmi and i decided to walk nisa home...talk crap all the way haha. After reached Nisa's block hilmi n i decided to walk back to his block but it didnt happen cos we were like tired n sleepy already so just took bus 39.

On monday was supposed to go cycling with Khai, Hilmi, Nina, Ayun and some other ppl. But most of them backed out at last left the 3 of us...Very funny la we were cycling den we gelarkan ourselves as bujang lapok...khai as ramli, hilmi as aziz and me as sudin. then we were cycling n singing songs from seniman bujang lapok...then we go bored so we used our bikes to try and make each other fall haha but luckily none of us fell. When our 2hrs was up, we suddenly decided to go to peace centre to play this LAN computer game called Left4Dead very funny haha. After that khai went off so hilmi n i decided to lepak under this 1 block at tamp n we started talking to this cat n it replied us by saying meow meow...ofcourse la rafi it reply meow if reply in words that we understand i think we would be scared shitless haha.
On tuesday early in the morning went out with my bestfriend sharmila to ecp since she wanted to go the with me early in the morning. Had breakfast at ecp macs den walked down the beach n found a place to seat n planted our butts there watching this pakcik trying to fish and started to listen to some songs. After which we went to meet khai at bedok int. den went to afghanistan so khai could get his haircut while waiting for ard. Den went to simei mrt station to go to ct hall by train cos khai and ard wanted to apply for a job at robinsons. saw abg dadly in police uniform..teperanjatkan orang je kerja dier haha.den ate at ljs, khai went to meet his gf, sharmila went to meet her frens and me n ard went to tampines 1 to recce again haha.
Wednesday was supposed to go to sch gym to do some weight training with hilmi and khai but then we decided to play soccer instead.i hurt my ankle by jumping off this wall which was actually like a drop from the 2nd storey...pandai sngt r rafi...haha...still hurting rite now...thursday played pool with khai n hilmi...this time score was khai 5...hilmi 2 and me 3. with me still giving chance abit haha

and finally today after solat was supposed to go to sch to see nisa's "performance" bt something came up so sorry k awak =)
after dealing with it went to watch shinjuku incident....nice movie i tell u ppl....should watch haha...n now im at home typing abt wat happened withing these 2 weeks haha...

2009-04-08T09:21:00.002+08:00

hmm been a long time since i posted...well been a really long few weeks...want to get a job but kinda lazy to find one haha...me n a few other friends like decided to try n sign on to spf and hopefully we would get in together yea guys?haha....hmm and ive been really missing somebody rite now...only god knows who that person is...huak =p

and advice to a certain friend:ni semua cobaan so relax k....

well 2 days ago went out with hilmi to play pool...and i won 4 games to 3...and yesterday went out with khai n we like randomly decided to play pool...den he like totally trashed me 5games to 1 hahah...according to him it was revenge for last time when i was the one whom trashed him 7games to 2 hehe...

and advice to another friend:happy2 selalu ye...haha

well thats all for now....thx 4 reading...if anybody even reads my blog haha

2009-03-23T22:50:00.004+08:00

haix...really hate to start a post on a bad note but haix im feeling soo useless rite abt now...but who gives a shit rite?

day started ok...quite fun actually...but then things went downhill...from good to bad to worse...something happened to a very good friend of mine...i consider him like my brother already...who has always been there for me through thick n thin...well something happened just now that i would not disclose because i respect the person's privacy...well i currently feel freakin useless because this person has always been there helping me...but this time when he is in need i feel as though i cant do anything to help him...all of u who know me well enough would noe that i dun like seeing any of my friends sad or having watever negative feelings...it hurts me seeing them suffer....be it my bestest of best friends or just a normal friend....

nw all i can do is give this advice to that person hope he reads this..."take all of this as a test from Allah...just pray cos i know i always pray for u n all my friends...you have your family, your friends, and also me this bro of yours. I dont mind being a punching bag for a friend, or a listening ear...heck i would even be the shoulder for any of my friends to cry on".

well thats all before tears start dropping =(

2009-03-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

hmm today spent the whole day with 2 friends with some ups n downs....n i spent the whole day thinking abt this 1 person i really care about...because kinda worried about that person(only these 2 friends of mine know who im talking about)...den on the way to bedok this one song started to play from my mp3 which really almost made me cry...i would have if one of my friends didnt say, "Rafi muka macam nak nangis seh." which made me control myself from crying...the song that played was 'Real Love' by Messari....here r the lyrics....

Chorus
Girl)Girl, im going out of my mind(mind)
and even though i dont really know you(you)
and plus im feeling im running out of time
im waiting for the moment i can show you(show you)
and baby girl i want u to know, im watching you go ,im watching you pass me by

its real love that that you dont know about...

Baby i was there all alone.. when you'd be doing things i would watch you
i'd picture you and me all alone .. im wishing you was someone i can talk to
i gotta get you out of my head but baby girl i gotta see you once again(again)

its real love that you dont know about..
Chorus
its real love that that you dont know about...

Every now and now i go to sleep, i couldn't stop dreaming about you
your love is got me feeling kinda weak.. i really cant see me without you
and now u're running around in my head im never gonna let you slip away again(again)

its real love that that you dont know about...

Every now and then when i watch you... i wish that i could tell you that i want you
if i can have the chance to talk with to you.. if i get up the chance to walk with you
then i would stop holding it in ..and never have to go through this again (again)

its real love that you dont know about..
Chorus
its real love that that you dont know about...

Today when i saw you alone... i knew had to come up and approach you
coz girl i really gotta let you know ...all about the things you made me go through
and now she looking at me in the eye and now you get me open and now you dreaming
again(again)

its real love that that you dont know about...

Every now and then when i watch you... i wish that i could tell you that i want you
if i can have the chance to talk to with you.. if i get up the chance to walk with you
then i would stop holding it in and never have to go through this again (again)

its real love that you dont know about..
Chorus
its real love that you dont know about..

You're the one that i wanna know thatti can take it from me nononoo
even thought i dont really know you.. i gotta lotta love i wanna show you
and youd be right there infront of me.. i see you passing infront of me nonono
girl i need ur love ...baby i need ur love

2009-02-27T19:47:00.002+08:00

BEEN AGES SINCE I LAST BLOGGED...n here i am blogging after nisa n hilmi asked me to update my blog haha....hmm well exam suxed but hopefully can clear my papers....well on the 17th rented a car for fun haha...n discovered that im quite the aggressive driver...went to bedok to eat but den didnt eat...just walked ard and saw ain's mom n uncle...den sent hilmi home...den on the way home from pasir ris i actually got lost bcos i made a wrong turn...but luckily found my way...

on the 18th went to cmpb....for medical checkup all of us were freakin scared of the blood taking haha but den after that test we were like tk sakit pon haha...and the iq test gave all of us a freakin headache from the shear amount of qns....hakim got into pes A....me and hilmi got into pes B cos we were underweight haha...faris got into pes E....den sent faris n hakim to sch den me n hilmi went to pick up ain from mplb to send her home...and almost got into an accident bcos of a stupid taxi...sorry guys for the emergancy brake...

on the 19th sent hilmi to hong leong to collect his bike....also accompanied by faizal and ian...apparently faizal said im not aggressive enough n my top speed is still slow to him haha...den after collecting hilmi's bike...we raced each other to see who can reach pasir ris first....hilmi won cos i was stuck behind a slow pick up truck...sian haha...den went to send the car back at yishun...so faizal taught me how to go to seletar dam...nice place...den went to yishun and faizal sent us back home...

20th was doomsday...2 exam papers in a day...got pissed off after the 2nd paper so went to ehub to play pool...won against hilmi 7 games to 2 hahahahaha....den cooled of so went home after that...a few days later met up with khai to play pool lost to him 7-5 nvm close game....afew days after that khai was bored so he asked me to play pool again with him...this time i won against him 7-4....haha revenge is sweet...

den just now met luqman for solat jumaat...after that he accompanied me to guardian to buy some things...den lepak for a while den went on our way home....otw home hilmi msged me asking me to accompany him to whitesands to buy game....den i was like ok...n i ended up buying a game too haha wth...

and this is a msg for somebody and whoever terasa too bad la eh..." i seriously feel like i dunno u anymore".....

well thats all...bye ppl

2009-01-21T08:40:00.002+08:00

been a long time since ive blogged...well currently im still stressing over NetSec....good news is that ive scored full marks for quality engineering quiz =D....well later today ill have my napha test...planning to fail...but i know if u plan to fail u fail to plan lol...den on thurs ill be having his interview thingy for career communications module...i think i would really suck at it...

yesterday me n hilmi like became mechanics for a few hrs trying to change his bike's footrest haha...in the process he accidently cut my arm with a screwdriver T_T
we had some trouble with a screw but managed to solve it haha...

well thats all for now...

2009-01-04T12:59:00.002+08:00

been quite stress with all my projects...hope i can clear everything n graduate this semester...
been driving quite abit lately since i got my license =D

1 jan 2009
drove from tampines to lim chu kang was ok but got abit sleepy while driving there lol...den
drove to simei...den back to tampines...all that just to get used to my dad's car lol...

2 jan 2009
drove to school in the morning only lol...had make up Career Communication lesson was quite interesting...lepak in sch until 7pm++ or 8pm den went home felt abit sugar high that nite cos of the 3 cans of red bulls drank in the day xD

3 Jan 2009
woke up very early den drove to pasir ris park with my sis cos she wanted me to accompany her cycling there...while cycling did many stupid stuff lol...den my sis started complaining that she was getting hungry...so decided to drive back home so she can eat....when we reached home saw our uncle at the car park with his new car...he let me drive it around the car park....swee siols...damn smooth...den after our uncle went on his way home...me n my sis went home...ate...den i washed up den went to sleep for a few hrs...when i woke up...drove with my dad to tamp mall...to pick up my mom n my sis...den drove to my aunts house...ok la learnt some stuff on the road...

4 jan 2009
boring day at home...parents went to johor...so im dying of boredom at home...no car n nth nice on tv...luckily later meeting hilmi to lepak for a while hehe...and im kinda missing somebody rite now...wonder wat that person is doing at this very moment

great day

2008-12-30T10:09:00.002+08:00

29DEC 2008

Actually the day started quite sucky...on my way walking to sch...suddenly it started raining heavily...was quite drenched la...luckily i had extra polo tshirt in my bag at that point of time lol...
went to Quality engineering lab...got my term test result n i scored 27/30 not bad at all=p........den went to engineering hall 1 so that faizal n ian can finish doing their network security reports...after which we went to breadboard canteen to have our lunch...2 pm i made my way to ubi for my tp...was nervous like hell haha...but followed all the advices given to me by some ppl to calm myself down(thx guys)....at 4pm...wohoo i passed haha happy giler sak...at that time also...ian told me i gotten 42/50 for network security....i was like wtf serious pe?haha den jumped for joy haha...
well den made my license...den off to ehub to meet hilmi...ain....n lets not forget nisa:) hehe...
well i was the first one to reach...went to watch IP man...great show...7/5 stars haha...after the show...hilmi sent ain home...nisa met up with her friends n i was alone going home sad haha...

well anyway thx guys for everything love u all haha....

thx for the great day nisa =)

2008-12-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

18 december 2008
Went to peninsular with Erwin,Zul,Fazli and Acap to send my guitar for resetup...den sad cos have to leave it there for a few days but nvm...den walk ard town with no exact destination...but when we started to feel hungry decided to go marina squre to eat...den lepak there for an hr or 2...den continued our "adventure" around town den went to kallang kfc to lepak until 10pm ++....den reached home 11+ or 12+ i forgot haha....n we saw this 1 girl like 5 times throughout the whole day...

21 december 2008
an ok day i guess?except i got into this minor accidents cuts n injured bones here n there...

22 december 2008
eventho injured...went to penin to collect my dear guitar...accompanied by erwin n zul...thx guys...worth the 60$ but still cant hold it cos of the cuts on my hands...well went home...den got quite a heartbreaking sms from a certain person whom shall not be named...so rite now im kinda not in the mood for anything...i guess the song lyrics below is for that person

MY Happy Ending

Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh
So Much For My Happy Ending
Oh Oh Oh
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do [CD version]
All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

2008-12-16T13:21:00.002+08:00

well been a while since i last posted..have been bz with termtest projects n such...
well term test was alrite...QE and Itech easy but Netsec hard...hmm but hope i can pass n hopefully score for all 3 papers =D

well after the last paper n after sembahyang jumaat last fri...me,ian,faizal went to changi point to chillax with the nice sea breeze...while waiting for jufri,syafiq n erwin to reach changi airport haha...
well on our way from changi point me n faizal got to 2 near accidents but not gonna go into detail on that...

well met jufri,syafiq n erwin at t3 popeye n we ate there to our hearts content(well not really...more like till we ran out of $$ haha)...went ard t3 cos jufri wanted to look at those air stuwardesses lol...well den faizal sent me to hilmi's house to return his helmet n went on my way home...

currently 2nd day of holidays(excluding weekends)...been boring...gonna meet khai later to play pool with him at ehub den maybe going bugis cos he wanna buy something...

n i cant wait for friday =D

n wish me luck once again for my 3rd class 3 tp lol.....hope i pass this time round ><

2008-12-05T09:05:00.002+08:00

currently stressed out with the many make up quizzes. all of this is the effect of having a 5day mc lol...well scored 18/20 for my itech quiz. not bad but could have been better if not for that stupid careless mistake lol...yesterday's itech labtest was too easy...might get full marks but i wont be too hopeful cos dowanna be over confident haha....

on wednesday went out with sharmila...had a great time....thx alot yea =D
still laughing about wat happened under that block hahahahaha...

waiting for term test to come n go so i can go resetup my guitar...so i can finally play my guitar again hahahah >.<
i hate playing a guitar with a warped neck...i pity my guitar haha......

anyway yesterday hilmi gave me a comment when i suddenly smiled "kau da giler kepe?"
well my reply rite now is....aku rase r da giler...atau da nk giler haha...

2008-11-30T07:11:00.002+08:00

finally blogging as im finally feeling better haha....
had been sick the whole week n damnit did it sux being in bed
for 7 days...except for wednesday which i forced myself to go to sch
to send my mc n for mp/sip judging...missed 2 outings with phay han
and sharmila...so sorry guys...ill make it up to u... aite =D
well i missed talking to some ppl on the phone n some online...
missed going to sch to disturb ppl...yes to disturb ppl...i dun miss studying lol...
eventho i feel like im falling behind alot being away for a whole week >.<

2008-11-16T16:32:00.002+08:00

my day has been...very...ermm ok i guess hahahaha...
wake up very early in the morning...bathed went out for a
very early morning jog haha...came back home...
bathed again had breakfast n started to play some com games...
till 9am...den started to continue writing my project report...
den had a great chat with nisa...now im gonna take a very longgggg
nap haha....

2008-11-15T15:51:00.003+08:00

this is made afew weeks ago for a certain person hope that person reads it
__________________________________________________________

If I have ever brought you pain
Or caused your heart to grieve
Please listen now as I explain
The reason I believe
Each time I look into your eyes
I see a peaceful place
Removed from anger, ache, and sighs
Filled with sheer poise and grace.

I see a world where all is well
Each piece, perfectly paired
It is easy for me to tell
No life could be compared
To each blessing God has bestowed
Upon your earthen days
Or all the goodness you have showed
That left someone amazed.

My life seems immaterial
When placed here by your side
Your goodness is imperial
To what I can provide
Therefore, I often feel as though
I must ascend above
The bounds that I am meant to go
To meet your view of love.

If I have ever brought you grief
I shall express regret
For it is my sincere belief
Your heart I won’t forget
Your essence holds timeless beauty
Like that of the finest wine
And I’ve made your love, my duty
Though, you might never be mine.

2008-11-13T05:46:00.002+08:00

12 nov

met up with ian in sch ard 1020am sorry ian aku lambat sikit hehe...but den we had to wait almost 2hrs for hilmi, adeline and faizal to turn up so we were just bored to death...while waiting suddenly hazim joined us haha...had some laughs...when the other 3 did turn up...ian n din went to eat at mensa while the rest of us went to eat at breadboard....den i had to go for cds...which was better than i expected it to be...after class...i met up with them again...and somebody said something that made me think about something n made me sad n moody for the rest of the day...so sorry hilmi n ain cos u guys saw that very moody side of me hehe=p....

2008-11-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

ya Allah tolong la hambamu ini...
kuatkan la iman aku ini ya Allah...
tolong la aku mengharungi liku-liku kehidupan
tolong la aku dapat kehidupan yg aman n damai....

i dunno if i can take anymore heartbreaks...
anymore disappointments (with sch n what nots)...
i do cry myself to sleep on most nites(nothing wrong with a guy crying)
sometimes i wish i can turn back time n change history...

haix...~

ARGH!

2008-11-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

i cant take it anymore since u hate me soo much...until u make me feel like im not even
a fren of urs!!!...i give up!!!...ill get out from ur blissful life with whoever...i MIGHT be around if u want
me to be...but if not den ull just wont see me... i would say im sorry for everything
but im not! cos i dun think ive ever done anything wrong towards u!...i just guess
im not allowed to love or wont be loved by anybody...but who gives a shit about
me rite?tts rite nobody....

i just hope my perangai wont revert back to how it was during sec sch...

thx but no thx...

n im gonna say sorry to 2 friends...1) sorry tau plan tk jadi =(
2)sorry menyusahkan kau

below is an original song meant for her with some help from a very close
friend...too bad tk menjadi my hajat to sing it for her:

c e
pertama kali ku melihat dirimu
a d
Ku rasa mesranya di hatiku
c e
Senyummu ayu, menawan hatiku
a d
ku ingin mu selalu

c e
Aku merasa, dirimu adalah
a d
seorang insan indah manisnya
c e
Akan ku bina, istana
a d
dan juga permata ah.

c g
aku disini serbegini
a d
tetap menunggumu selalu
c g
Aku tkkan menjadi bekas-bekasmu
a d
yg selalu memusnahkan hatimu

c/e/a/d x2

c e
pertama kali ku mendengar suaramu
a d
oh manis nya, ayu sunggunya
c e
suara manis merdu sang bayu
a d
sedap didengar selalu

c e
Aku merasa, dirimu adalah
a d
seorang insan indah manisnya
c e
Akan ku bina, istana
a d
dan juga permata ah.

c g
aku disini serbegini
a d
tetap menunggumu selalu
c g
Aku tkkan menjadi bekas-bekasmu
a d
yg selalu memusnahkan hatimu

c g
akn ku siram cinta ku yg suci
a d
utk menjadi bukti....
c g
aku akn sbr utk memiliki mu
a d
sentiasa berada untukmu

c/e/a/d

--------------------------------------------
n below is a poem meant 4 her but hajat tk sampai to give it to her

I want to call you
but your not there

I want to see you
but you dont care

I want to tell you i love you
but you would probably ignore me

I want to kiss you
but you would turn away

I want to hold you
and tell you everything will be alright

I want you to care
even if its only a little

And when I tell you this
I want us to be more
-------------------------------------------
once again GOOD BYE

2008-11-05T07:23:00.003+08:00

hmm lets see on monday went to driving revision ard 1245 went drove all over ubi and tampines lol...the instructor asked me..."how did u fail the last time?u drive ok wat eventho 2 months nvr touch a car"...and i was just like" i guess i was too nervous?" hahaha....well den yesterday went for another prac...everything went smoothly...except for a near accident with a stupid/moronic/idiotic j-walker..and was also caught in a traffic jam nearing the end of the revision...later at 1020 ill be having another driving revision n meeting a cousin of mine at ubi since he will also be having a driving prac there at the same time...after revision i would have to go back to sch for cds...how i regret failing french lol...

well WISH ME LUCK for my DRIVING TEST this coming friday ppl =D
n hoping to see somebody on friday be it i pass or fail....
*hopefully i pass =p *

OH! n yesterday my course manager actually called me to wish me luck
for my driving test hahaha...so nice...n also told me to study hard this sem
cos abit more and my cgpa would be enough for direct intake to ntu or nus xD

2008-11-02T20:33:00.002+08:00

hmm felt like posting abt today haha....
well the day started slow and quite bad for me
and I was not quite in the mood for anything
felt like going out didnt want to disturb hilmi
cos i thought he was sick...but guess wat?
i was wrong haha...well asked my bestfriend
out to lepak...planned to watch a movie but
ended up going to white sands lib to get some
of bestie's assignments done...
den went home together...den at home...
watched the movie leftenan adnan great historical movie...=D
den now here i am posting bout my day....
lets see how my day ends hahaha

i just want you be happy

2008-11-01T12:49:00.003+08:00

I just want you to be happy
I might not be the one to make you though
It hurts so much to see you down
I just want you to feel better

I just want you to be happy
I might not be the right one, who knows
It hurts so much to see you decay
I just want you to find the way out
I just want you to be happy
You might not feel like talking to me
But it hurts so much to hear the silence
I'd rather hear you scream from your soul

You never tell me what the pain is for
You let your heart be stuck in the fall
You don't have to share
Just come out of a cage
Then the sun will banish your fears

I just want you to be happy
I might not be the one to make you though
It hurts so much just to be around you
When you are too hard on yourself
I just want you to know (x3)
that it's okay to be happy in the fall

I just want you to be
I just want you to feel
I just want you to be
I just want you to be happy
==================================================
ps:no matter what ur decision...
 no matter who u choose, i will still be here for u cos all i want is for
u to be happy...happy with the choices u make...
if u need my help or a listening ear, i'll always be there for u
up to u to accept my sincerity or not cos ill wait for u patiently...
but im not here to cause u any more problems...
i just want u to be happy cos i noe i cant force u, sincerely all i want is to see u happy,
sorry if i caused u some
problems in the past...i will wait for u sincerely from a distance hoping nt to stress u out

2008-10-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

=(

2008-10-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

made for a certain person...hope she reads this one day...haix

At first sight,
She had something none of the others had,
To me she stood out,
It all seemed like I could chase her to the ends of the Earth,
Just to say I love you,
Even if she said I don't,

Her face is burned and permanently pressed in my mind,
Her face brings me joy and sorrow,
The joy of seeing her face,
But the sorrow of her maybe not loving me the way I love her,
Just the joy of seeing her face gets me through the day,
My love for her is stronger than any material in this universe,
But she doesn't know how much I do,

The pain of not being able to talk to her,
The pain of not seeing her in person,
The pain of not being with her,
It seems unbareable,

That one time of holding her hand when she was scared,
I never wanted it to end,
My love seems unbreakable,
I can't stop thinking of her,
Not for one minute of the day,

So all I can do is try to get a message to her,
It's that I love her,
And there's nothing anyone can do about it,
Yet I'm the only one that love her,
And I will try everything to get her in this One Sided Love,
But it might only be that,
This One Sided Love.

2008-10-08T07:56:00.002+08:00

im back after bz celebrating raya with family n friends haha...

6th october:
raya outing with Fira, Ain, Hilmi(who joined us abit later in the day), Dee, Hilmi(mimi), Ilma, Haruda and Din...Tini was supposed to join us but due to some circumstances she couldnt but its alrite ^^

I was the first one to arrive at bedok int...being 20mins early decided to meet ain first under her block cos i would have been very bored in the int alone lol...after meeting her...fira called saying she has reached the meeting place...sorry that eventho u didnt reach first u had to wait for us =p

Then waited for Din for 30mins to reach...n 10mins after that the rest finally arrived...

first we went to Tini's house...the girls were all over her 18mths old nephew which was kinda funny cos he would start to cry when they tried to get close to him but was happy when any of the guys were around...dap dup dap dup we were otw to our next destination which was...........................................Din's house...who would have known that he was my neighbour b4 my family moved to tampines hahaha....ate some kueh2 drank some drinks...den next was to ain's house...somethings happened but i do not want to say wat happened so do ask lol...well all the way on the bus i sat with fira on the bus =D
but was talkin bout the thing that happened while disturbing din in the process...sorry din hehe...
well almost missed out stop cos everybody was soo engrossed with a big conversation between ourselves..haha...
next destination Hilmi's(emi) house....den hilmi mimi's house...den to ilma's house...den to dee's house all located at pasir ris...

had pizza at mimi's house...nice! haha...at dee's house was nice n funny haha...sat with fira n watched tv with her...n i just found out that she was afraid of cats eventho she denies it haha...she screamed into my ears when hilmi pushed one of dee's cats towards us haha....
den went to my house...thankfully dee's dad sent us to my place so we didnt have to waste time waiting for a bus haha...but too bad we couldnt go to fira's house nor could she come to my house cos she had to go home....lain kali k u =)

well at ard 12midnite haruda came back with his dad's car to fetch the rest of them home...
all in all it was a great day....esp for me who made 4 new friends hehe...
no pics now waiting for ain to send them to me...

7th october:well slept at 3am after the outing...n had to wake up at 5am! hahaha...had to go to work at tiong bahru...faizal, hilmi, thoufic, vincent, adeline and i became invidulators for some psle papers wahaha hard to believe but true...well had to report to work at 7am...all of us were like 30mins late cos "some" of us got lost so the rest of us had to wait for them outside...
the job was ok just got irritated by some of those hyper active boys who do not want to listen to instructions until they were being scolded...den went to jurong east to hand in our time sheet...
n had our lunch...at 2+pm...brunch for me since i didnt have any food or drinks for breakfast...
after lunch hilmi n i went to woodlands to meet ain...but when we do reach woodlands...hilmi n i went to the causewaypoint arcade to play some bike game...i lost to him...but ill win next time!! haha...well finally went to find ain who was studying with her friend at banquet...den went to mac...hilmi n i finally made our way back home from woodlands at 8:30pm cos we were bloody tired n sleepy haha...reached home to a house full of strangers(parent's friends which i dunno)...

8th october:
gonna meet hilmi later again haha...to go gym maybe n to book our ns medical checkup in sch...

to fira: u jage diri baik2 tau during the camp n im sorry i tk dapat g..=)

2008-09-29T08:27:00.002+08:00

this great month of ramadan is almost over...den soon will be hari raye time...hee~
well yesterday had some problems after everything was solved, went to meet hilmi, aeynn n tini. Both me n hilmi had to teach them maths for their o lvls maths haha...

well around 5+pm we started to pack our bags n we were all arguing over where to break our fast hahahaa....i wanted Macs, hilmi wanted burger king, tini wanted KFC, and aeynn wanted banquet....argued all the way till we reached bedok int from bedok town sec area...so yea it was a very long argument XD

on the way to bedok int my cousin Dino drove by n horned at me n i was suprised, when i turned ard oh it was him haha xD...

well back to the story...atlast we decided to eat at banquet hahaha...xD
hilmi, aeynn n i ate yong tau fu,...tini ate kwei teow which hilmi n i finished hahaha xD

den we went to mac cos aeynn n tini wanted to continue studying...after a while me n hilmi went home first haha...on the bus was soo noisy cos these 2 mats n 1 minah thinking the bus is all theirs...hate them...n 1 of the mats melatar pulak hahahaha....
hilmi couldnt stand them so he went down at my stop too...
after his bus came we went our seperate ways for the day...

all in all it was a chaotic day n i wish a certain somebdy was there with me for the day...

2008-09-25T15:52:00.002+08:00

hmm yesterday went to sch in in the afternoon hoping to get some work done...but when i got there my supervisor Mr shri has already taken the board away for testing...so i couldnt do my casing cos i needed the dimension of the board...so just played psp n watched a movie on my laptop with the rest of the guys...den went to the lib to meet Dino to help him borrow the books he needed but had some trouble with the machine...luckily the libarian helped us or we would be stuck there forever hahaha....den me n hilmi went to the 5th floor to find tini n aeynn...continued to play psp until my psp's batt died soo sad...den we went to east point banquet to berbuka but hilmi went home cos he wanted to buka at home...so it was me, tini n aeynn...me n tini had fishball noodle n aeynn had curry chicken noodle....
well after buka while walking...aeynn out of nowhere almost fell tgh2 dunia luckily for her she caught me n tini in time haha...n there was this one uncle who saw n his facial expression was just hysterical hahahahaha....

well thats all for now~~~

2008-09-23T09:10:00.002+08:00

finally i didnt feel lazy to update this old blog of mine after 1 year being untouched...
well it has been very hectic with school n friends n mp/sip...new friends made =D
some old friends lost =(
n some old friends found haha xD

n sad to say i failed my first TP cos mounted the kerb in circuit(of all the time i could do that i did it during the test itself wat luck)... well next TP falls on 7nov...wish me luck ppl =D

7days left during this bulan yg mulia ini...=(

thats all for now...below is the poem i written for a certain somebody =p
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You asked me if i love you
and i asked myself how to begin
to share with you
the feelings in my heart

You inspire in me a love so deep
words cannot describe it
so powerful that it overwhelms
my every thought.

You asked me if i love you
and i wish there were a way
you could just see my soul
and find the depth of passion
tenderness and love
that holds you closer to my heart
than anyone or anything else.

You asked me if i love you
and i look into the magic
of your eyes and promise
"yes i love u
I always will"
--------------------------------

2007-10-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

hmm just a random post today....
today in school saw the girl i like yayness...haha
would like to say to her
"she was my past, would u be my present n future?"
wakaka rafi rafi...
chaio~

2007-10-12T01:13:00.000+08:00

weee got back from penang a few days back...and a certain somebody complaining about y i never update my blog for such a long time...so ill post now k?k?
well the penang trip was quite fun?we had this friendly driver which is rare...we called him abang din XD.

Day 1:
nothing much happened here...just spend the whole day on the bus sleeping all the way from singapore to penang...we also visited a charcoal factory which was quite interesting....did u know that it takes abit more than 1mth to make charcoal?! o.O
then made our way to penang and to our hotel....which happened to be the best 4-star hotel in Malaysia.Then we checked in n went out to explore...alot of pubs n clubs over there

Day 2:
well we got a morning call at 4am for sahur...den got another call from suharti...or was it farazella....to make sure we were awake =p....well sahur ok la but everyday nasi lemak...
den 8am met the rest n boarded the bus n went to AMD(n listen to their boring talk)...den to USM(universiti sains malaysia)...and yes another boring talk hehe...den at nite went to this never ending stretch of shops at this pasar malam at batu ferringi...den went back to hotel den went out to find something for supper...

us outside AMD campus

Day 3:

as usual wake up for sahur and everything..the first place we went is the DELL Penang..it is very interesting...they show us how notebook is made..for me the trip to DELL is the most interesting trip..after that lunch and next to Plexus factory..it was ok lah for me..

after the plexus factory we when to one shopping center it was damn big and damn expensive..they give us 1 hour there but my friend and i only take 30 mins and we go back to our bus.. the third day is very short because we want abg din(bus driver) to rest for the fourth day our journey back home..

Us outside dell

me,hakim n shidah at queensbay mall(penang's biggest mall)
candid outside queensbay mall
Abg Din(our friendly bus driver), Wak,Feeq,Me

Day 4:

the 4th day is more of waiting day..went we just outside penang and were about to enter perak..one guy start vomiting..so the bus have no choice but to stop at one of the plaza toll..and let him vomit..den after that the bus driver went to the nearest hospital..we were told that he needed to take blood test,urine test and what ever test that can be taken at the hospital..we waited about 2 hour..den went for their lunch..at there i saw one of my lecturer taking his bag and the boy bag and put it in the cab..we did not know what gonna happen until another lecturer told us that we is warded for to days at KL hospital..we where shock and hoping that nothing happen to him..our plan is to go to Lata Waterfall at Ipoh and Pewter factory at Selangor..all that has to be cancelled because of this incident...so from perak we cancelled all activity and went straight to JB..the are few stop along the way..i make a lot of new friends..

stress

2007-08-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

i am soo stressed out rite now....tomorrow is french speaking test....den fri got icap labtest...den due date for mct project is in 1 weeks time....den main exams is coming soon...den worst thing is mct is the first paper...well actually thats just fine...haha
well thats all....for now..

rafi has rawred hahaha

2007-07-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

hmm havent been blogging for such a longgg time...and some ppl have been complaining=p
well sch is starting to suck...soo many things to do soo lil time...and i have a feelin that i will fail my french >_<
hmm anyways...hoping for my bday to come soon...so i can get my psp =p
heh...well thats all...
chiao~

GIVEN UP-LP

2007-06-23T20:09:00.001+08:00

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up...
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me!

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up...
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
with me!

GOD!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my...
Put me out of my fucking misery!

I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me!

girls read this...rafi's guide on how not to hurt a guy

2007-06-17T09:24:00.000+08:00

1. Guys hate sluts.

2.Hey, are you busy? or Are you doing something?- two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3.Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4.Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5.Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like You know what?!..uh?nevermind..? would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if 1 guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

holiday also like not holiday

2007-06-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

i forgot how holidays feel like haha...
now holiday also like not holiday...
got mct project la got telprn project la got french project la
and i think also got the apel thingy...
whole holiday do project....but i dont feel like doing the french project
cos i dunno wat im supposed to do for it wahaha!...

nuff said...

finally

2007-06-09T06:24:00.000+08:00

well after a few weeks of not updating...i finally got a chance to do so...
well i just finished my term test and hopefully i didnt fail any of the papers xD
parents went to korea during my term test period...too bad i didnt get a chance
to go with them haha...

well here r some pics taken during last week's vivo outing

well peace out!~

2007-05-29T08:47:00.000+08:00

hmm...yesterday my day started out just great....got back my engine maths3 quiz results....which was 21/30....and i also got back my integrated circuit application(icap) quiz results...which was 19/20(top in class yayness lol)...then the day went smoothly...but the ending of the day could be better....@_@

well im off to sch now....class starts in 12mins lol...
chiao

seize the day-a7x

2007-05-25T11:08:00.001+08:00

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we traveled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(guitar solo)

So what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? Whooooah
So I never want to leave you and the memories of you and me
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)

8th month

2007-05-24T19:50:00.000+08:00

hmm have been waiting for her for 8mths soon 9mths...my feelings has not changed...
well it has only gotten stronger...i hope one day u will give me a chance and see how much
u mean to me...n rite now i miss you soo much since it has been awhile since we have spent time
together...i find happines within you...

hmm....

2007-05-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

everyday i try to think up of a plan for her bday...
like what to do...where to go...whats my budget...
how to give her the present...will she like the present...
how and when do i pop the question...chey...lol...
any ideas guys?xD
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now i will start my ranting for the day xD
hmm wasted my time studying for 2 days for the engine maths quiz...
i could only do 2 out of 4 questions...hopefully can pass haha xD
but then i spent 10mins studying for the integrated circuit application(icapp) quiz
i could do all the questions...hopefully can get a high pass or maybe even full marks...chey xD
then...hmm wednesday is my project's due date...but still havent started with it lol...
rafi rafi...ape nak jadi haha...

dont mind my spelling mistakes if any...

yayness

2007-05-19T09:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday was quite fun^^...
did my lab easily...and fast
then after friday prayer met up with farhan,kenneth,amir,has, and others xD
we played soccer for a few hours...quite fun la since it had been sooo long since i last played soccer.
managed to score once with a total of 2 shots xD
well anyway...after that and after showering,we went to meet bryan at TM...then we went to perlini silver cos i wanted to buy something for someone ;)
then went to gv n bought our tix for 28 weeks later movie.
to waste time, we had dinner at ljs then went to arcade...
well the movie was quite nice ^^"
after the movie we all went home around midnite.

The end LOL

2007-05-15T07:45:00.000+08:00

At night he breaks down and cries and sometimes
he doesnt even know why
His loneliness is driving him insane
so is his lonely heart the one to blame?

He isnt sure which way to go
is it his heart that he should follow
He so unsure and now he needs her
more than before

Tell him he isnt the only broken heart
feeling scared and lonely
he knows everything heals in time
but can time heal this lonely heart of his

His heart knows youre his only friend
and one day I hope to be loved by you

His heart is calling on you to
give him strength to pull through
but still he must believe
there is another lonely heart out there
somewhere waiting for him

Stupid microcontroller technology

2007-05-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

stupid mct lecturer...she is the most boring lecturer i know...she puts everybody to sleep during lecture...den my lab facilitator for mct is worse....he like dont know how to teach liddat...den biler ajar...mcm nak tk nak jek...haix...this is a danger subject for me >_<

2007-05-14T05:27:00.000+08:00

my first ever post in a blog....period....lol
hmm more entries coming soon....
well today i have this quiz that im sooo gonna fail >_<>_<